From Chiara’s Diary

12/10 /1968 At times, a certain preoccupation comes to the soul. How do I appear to God? What and how much dust covers my soul? Even though it seemed to me that I had not committed any deliberate sins, neither mortal nor venial, how ugly I must be?

And to say the truth, we wouldn’t know how to give a judgment on this.
It seems to me that in this case, the only thing to do is to immediately stop looking at ourselves, to “forget ourselves” in order to look only at God, at His will, at Jesus in our neighbors. To be constantly “outside of ourselves.” To seek not our own sanctity, but the Saint. Herein lies charity and authentic holiness.